Future – Stick (AK-47 https://drwilliamkayaerbil.me/ak-47-poetry-how-i-learned-to-be-okay-watching-the-world-burn/) Talk. Speak softly, and carry a Big Stick.

Azrael Austin <wikiarsenic.austin@gmail.com>

Future – Stick (AK-47 https://drwilliamkayaerbil.me/ak-47-poetry-how-i-learned-to-be-okay-watching-the-world-burn/) Talk. Speak softly, and carry a Big Stick.
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kaya.erbil@protonmail.com <kaya.erbil@protonmail.com> Sat, May 19, 2018 at 8:09 AM
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On May 19, 2018 8:04 AM, Azrael Austin <wikiarsenic.austin@gmail.com> wrote:
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On Sat, May 19, 2018 at 8:03 AM, Azrael Austin <wikiarsenic.austin@gmail.com> wrote:
On Sat, May 19, 2018 at 7:57 AM, <kaya.erbil@protonmail.com> wrote:

“I was sent forth from the power, and I have come to those who reflect upon me, and I have been found among those who seek after me.  Look upon me, you who reflect upon me, and you hearers, hear me.You who are waiting for me, take me to yourselves.And do not banish me from your sight.And do not make your voice hate me, nor your hearing.Do not be ignorant of me anywhere or any time.  Be on your guard!  Do not be ignorant of me.”

Thunderer, Perfect Mind

I dream of people in the Middle East doing Food Not Bombs!

Thunderer, Perfect Mind, warped by a mind numbing combination,
Of anti-depressents, lithium, anti-psychotics, mood stabilizers,
And sleep meds, a chemical prison, all designed to chain me,
To a fucking laboratory bench and to think inside an iron maiden,
The Perfect Mind, my mind, the only mind I have is non-linear,
A spider’s dragnet catching the wind over a maglev bullet train,
More Ai Weiwei or Picasso than Einstein or Mendel,

Each day that passes is another day I am closer to death,
Enter Mark Twight and rock climbing in Berkeley in 2007:

“What’s your problem? I think I know.
You see it in the mirror every morning:
temptation and doubt hip to hip inside your head.
You know it’s not supposed to be like this.
But you drank the Kool-Aid and dressed yourself,
up in someone else’s life.”

We don’t need shoes to walk on glass,
I’ve already cut myself every night,
Ole’ Johnny Blade is my dark friend,
Do you know what I’ve done?! Killed!!!
How can I live with myself, soulless??!!

Where do I turn? What did we do when,
We unchained the earth from the sun?
Left floating 3rd rock from the sun,
Suspended in an absolute void, nowhere,
To turn to find help but each other,

Sisters and brothers,
I need a friends, the demons,
Come from the lower world at night,
The angels come from the sky, upperworld,
American psycho, learn to love,

Ignore the “you’re crazy” comments,
For, for every IQ point they have you have 1000,
When you present a piece of art on Amazon,
… and gets mixed reviews, polarized across 1’s and 5’s,
You know you are onto something,

Are you a night child? Does love set you free,
To bear your soul and leave it on the ground,
Nothing is hidden with me, yet under cover of darkness,
Somewhere there in that void, the void in our hearts,
The void in our minds, the absolute void of 0 (zero),
The infinite 0 of space demonstrates the infinite,

Scream into space and no-one yet has come to help,
Aliens either do not care or are just like us, or better,
Or worse, for out star brothers to show up on CNN,
Will take a concerted effort for people to gather objective data,
The day you see a human face in agony and hug him,

Amen, God is Love!

There is something about the absolute void that screams,
Divinity! Oh, father Sky and Mother Earth,
When the lights are out and the roads shut down,
When electromagnetic pulses destroy the info economy,
Zapping Facebook and Google to silicon vapor,

If you have not made peace with this void,
It will scare you, child of the Black Sun,
Angels are right here right now, an angel,
Is here in this poem, I am an angel of what I do not know,
But I am an angel, I save souls or return them to hell,
Mystical bounty hunter, American Psycho!

Demon slayer, Slayer on my Mp3 player every day,
Burzum is how I survived Berkeley, a little,
Darkthrone, Transylvanian Hunger, bit me my love child,
Eat my flesh, broken for you,
Drink my blood, as it rushes out of the bite wound,

Animals we are repressing our inner drives to hunt,
To fornicate like Bonobos, cyberlove, Tinder,
Cybernetic blood, sugar, sex majik,
Apples, Androids, and Firefoxes,
Hey riot grrrl, want to start a riot?

Dopamine floods, psychodynamic synaptic connection,
Tango my dear, let’s tango and rest from our visions,
My love, I know it is exhausting to be an Orchid,
Dandelions, everywhere, not a single orchid around,
…or, so you think, around the table of Food not Bombs,

We can meet those of our blood, orchid blood, plants,
We vote Green, Ralph Nader, the ridiculous fool was,
Cool with me, but we know that politics is a waste,
Get in the kitchen and cook that vegan food,
Food not Bombs, a gathering for the orchid children,

Amen, God is Love!

…to be continue…

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Marletta,
Azrael take your soul at the the time of bodily death.
So, chill out and wait for Azrael to come when you reach a nice comfortable old age chilling in your mansion. Peace be upon you.
Kaya
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Kendra,
Go destroy Trump with your body, camera, and brain.
K
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Her name is Kali.
K
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I would flip the Earth upside down to know you, dancing one day in the studio you came along. A soft touch, a gentle caress. A kind smile. My love, I would flip the world upside down to dance with you.
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Buy it.
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Stokke the Impailer. Tech Broz, fuck wit dis Cal Mama Bear u might end up in Kurdistan in a YPJ prizon camp wit an ISIS bro and he might not like u. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Women%27s_Protection_Units #bartonspringz2049 @bumble @patagoniaaustin
K
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Ah.
K
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Next.
K
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Kuriyan,
Give that to your bitch Nick Levinson.
K?
K
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On May 18, 2018, 2:22 AM, < kaya.erbil@protonmail.com> wrote:
Mean Free Path
Deconstruction of mass destruction,
A clandestine blaze of white hot love,
Burning in my heart full of Christ,
Jesus, I love you giver of Life,
Water to all the saints underneath,
Peacekeeper IIIs, bow down to life,
To, the tree whose bark gives us baskets,
I see in the grass Allah’s love,
No leaf falls without adonai’s will,
The sacred force is the same,
A nucleus of hearts waiting to be split and joined in orgasmic fusion,
Love is all there is in those seven paths from the sky,
When beings-in-the-world face finitude,
Transcending obstacles,
Becoming, being, static,
Cybernetic blood, sugar, sex majik,
Apples, Androids, and Firefoxes,
In the heart of the Land of the Free,
The heartland, no dirty, dirty here,
Mother Minnesota nice ice,
The drift of Middle Eastern ash,
Vaporized half a world a way,
By Teller’s septuplets, atomic love,
We need that night vision green,
The color of money for Seals,
To keep the sugar flowing in our blood,
Fuck who you want, any day, any time,
Tinder for dopamine floods, sex majik,
At night, the nuclear winter in American Babylon,
Then shall anyone who,
Has done an atom’s weight,
Of good, see it!
And anyone who,
Has done an atom’s weight,
Of evil, shall see it,
At the hands of God,
The unknown known Source of Life,
Humanity’s got that atomic climate change cure,
They got that Information Superhighway,
They got that techne, that fire,
It’s cool, they stole that shit from Zeus,
But do these mortals have time?
Do they control time?
O’ day, arise!
Shine your light, the atoms are dancing.
Thanks to Him the universe is dancing.
overcome with ecstasy,
Free from body and mind
I’ll whisper in your ear where their dance is leading them.
All the atoms in the air and in the desert are dancing,
puzzled and drunken to the ray of light,
they seem insane,
All these atoms are not so different than we are,
happy or miserable,
perplexed and bewildered,
we are all beings in the ray of light from the beloved,
nothing can be said,
Time for springtime is lovetime,
And viva sweet love,
(All the merry little birds are,
Flying in the floating in the,
Very spirits singing in,
Are winging in the blossoming),
Lovers go and lovers come,
Awandering awondering,
But any two are perfectly,
Alone there’s nobody else alive,
(Such a sky and such a sun,
I never knew and neither did you,
And everybody never breathed,
Quite so many kinds of yes),
Not a tree can count his leaves,
Each herself by opening,
But shining who by thousands mean,
Only one amazing thing,
(Secretly adoring shyly,
Tiny winging darting floating,
Merry in the blossoming,
Always joyful selves are singing),
Sweet spring is your,
Time is my time is our,
Time for springtime is lovetime,
And viva sweet love.
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😉 hail Satan 😉
K
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Kinda like Sam Colt, but peaceful as fuck.
K
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K
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For u Kendra for this brilliant paper 😉
Nazi Babylon gone 😉 keep calm, carry on. YPG here for u…
K
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On May 17, 2018, 5:44 AM, < kaya.erbil@protonmail.com> wrote:
So fix the suicide problemz.
K
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On Thu, May 17, 2018 at 5:40 AM, Azrael Austin <wikiarsenic.austin@gmail.com> wrote:
He was Jewish.
On Thu, May 17, 2018 at 5:40 AM <kaya.erbil@protonmail.com> wrote:
Aaron Swartz wasn’t Muslim.
K
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Cool 😉
K
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On Wed, May 16, 2018 at 8:05 AM <kaya.erbil@protonmail.com> wrote:
Marletta,
…and work on cleaning up your Mafia family’s mess.
K
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Marletta,
You might want to spend the rest of your life atoning for your sin of selling out Berkeley to BP with Birgineau my dad’s advisor by contacting her.
K
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On May 15, 2018 8:57 AM, Kaya Erbil < wikiarsenic.austin@gmail.com> wrote:
K
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On May 15, 2018 8:49 AM, Kaya Erbil < wikiarsenic.austin@gmail.com> wrote:
On Tue, May 15, 2018 at 8:42 AM, <kaya.erbil@protonmail.com> wrote:

It’s for you to see that the frame today rests on melting ice. Accept the shattering glass of collapsing skyscrapers as you do with the collapse of the ice sheets of the warming earth. Greenland will soon be a green land again. The Arctic Ocean will be a hotly contested trade route. The Antarctic will soon be a source of oil, fossilized liquid carbon long hidden from the greedy fingers of humanity by ice. Not any more. Drill baby drill, the American empire is over. Drill into the heart of the average American, Neo, and reveal their true nature. Indigenous cultures are coming up, from the margins, unstoppable forces of diversity. Appealing to a bleached social scene of sameness. The Matrix of mass synchronizing wave packets. Neo screams with his demon blood soaked blade, “Humanity is not a Bose Einstein condensate!” Billionaire Internet tycoons build fortresses to hide themselves from the faces of the traumatized masses affixed to screens like heroin addicts awaiting the next hit. They are most of all afraid of people like Neo. Nothing to loose, and obsessed with the liberation of his billion-body tribe. Finding appeal in the glow an artificial screen that I type on, glass and metal forbidden apple of knowledge. Mark if you are listening, I took the left hand path at the Sacred Stone in Standing Rock Reservation the day of dogs and gas and realized it contained the same energy as the Kaaba, but feminine, and went to write with the hand closest to my heart. However, before I left I prayed with tobacco that the black snake that powers your machine, Skynet’s mother, would never cross the Missouri. Neo and others like him have seen that it is Ex Machina. They are insane enough to see art as Deus Ex Machina. 

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On May 15, 2018 8:41 AM, Kaya Erbil < wikiarsenic.austin@gmail.com> wrote:
The funny thing is the doctorz now say I am perfectly sane, and Berkeley is insane.
K
On Tue, May 15, 2018 at 8:38 AM, <kaya.erbil@protonmail.com>wrote:

Amen for mind uploading and silicon valley’s insanity.  All of Austin and Los Angeles luv me, that means Marletta your name is erased for an eternity as soon as my fourth poetry book is done, and in so doing Berkeley’s endowment for about 500 yearz.

Wish you had written back a year ago, right?  lol
K
“Dear Professor  Saks, 

I am a Turkish-American bipolar I patient (U.C. Berkeley Ph.D., Chemistry) brought by DHS/FBI to mental hospital due to Tweets and Facebook posts seeking your help… 

I read your book The Center Cannot Hold in the Stanford University mental inpatient unit and related to most of your story. I have suffered from mood dependent psychosis for approximately ten years, and to this point have not been able to come up with a good treatment plan due to a variety of factors. I have lost many jobs in my attempt to restore my life since losing my job at MIT in 2010. I worked for Professor Susan Lindquist at the Whitehead Institute

About kayaerbil

I am a Berkeley educated chemistry Ph.D. who is moving into the area of working on developing appropriate technology for communities that are subjected to socio-economic oppression. The goal is to use simple and effective designs to empower people to live better lives. Currently, I am working with Native Americans on Pine Ridge, the Lakota reservation in South Dakota. I am working with a Native owned and run solar energy company. We are currently working on building a compressed earth block (CEB) house that showcases many of the technologies that the company has developed. The CEB house is made of locally derived resources, earth from the reservation. The blocks are naturally thermally insulating, keeping the house cool in the summer and warm in the winter. Eventually, a solar air heater and photovoltaic panels will be installed into the house to power the home and keep it warm, while preserving the house off the grid. A side project while in Pine Ridge is a solar computer. I hope to learn about blockchain encryption software for building microgrids. In addition, it is an immediate interest of mine to involve local youth in technology education.
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  1. Elizabet says:

    Edit. Rinse, repeat. 0I0ll0lll0000 = 11 ©
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