Opening Access the Heart

This world is tired of pain, I came to bring the pain,
Let’s feel it, and restore our lives with its resolution,
We need to feel the black hole’s void to understand love,
No one will change otherwise, without war and resistance,

There ain’t nothin’ new, that’s the old way the new way,
…but today we fight an inner war, and struggle, a jihad,
Against ourselves, against our greed, against our wills,
Against our ego, let’s find peace in ourselves and…

Discover peace at home, peace in the world,
Peace in the heart, my heart, peace in you,
What you got left in you to give, give it,
Give it now, or else we might all never see…


There is a great need for public access to cutting edge research results.  Nowhere is this more important than in communities that have been held down by oppressive colonial policies.  Centuries (~500 years) of White Supremacy have pervaded all aspects of learning and knowledge in the publication world.  The result, a serious dearth of individuals who as adults are able to understand modernity.  Yet, we are all influenced by the changes.  Consider this for a second, the atmosphere is being polluted at an every increasing rate by fossil fuel combustion byproducts.  Carbon dioxide and methane the two largest culprits for this with regards to global warming, but more generally human derived toxins are flooding our air.  I was just told yesterday that the ozone in the East Bay was at a toxic level.  So, the choice that I have made to live out the agricultural outskirts of the Bay Area seems like a good one.  The best thing I can think of doing is trying to reach out to others at this point in privileged communities and try my best to explain the needs that I have observed for education in communities plagued by the cycle of trauma and violence.  This is a cycle that CAN BE CHANGED, but an awareness in privileged populations is necessary.  The past two days I have made an effort to begin a new life in the business of ecological technology, data science, education, and the arts.  It is apparent to me that my experience with working youth (refugees and African-Americans in Atlanta and with the Lakota people in Pine Ridge and Standing Rock), that outsiders perhaps offer the best chance for renewal and restoration of a fair and equitable education for all.  The Sea School Cooperative brought some new permaculture base Mní Wičhóni Nakíčižiŋ Owáyawa (Standing Rock Camp School), I brought some brief introduction to solar lights, cameras, and books, Paul Chang brought some yoga techniques, Lydia brought some self-defense methods, and the list goes on and on.  We are all trying our best to protect the waters from Big Oil and every little bit counts.  I find myself in the Bay Area now, working on moving towards becoming a professional in the fields of technology and education.  I am inspired by my old professor at Berkeley Judith Klinman who as I learned yesterday is a thirty year strong Buddhist meditator.  She and I talked for about two hours yesterday about an idea I had for a potential partner in the work I am doing now.  She suggested a book called Dismantling Discontent: Buddha’s Way Through Darwin’s World that as a Buddhist she finds helpful as a way to bridge science and faith, Darwin and the Buddha.  Indeed, this is a very good place to start today.  She offered to write me a letter of recommendation, stating that she would like to to write out what I have done since Berkeley and how that informs my practice and professional aspirations.  The target that I mentioned to her was looking at the new Islamic four year undergraduate college called Zaytuna College in Berkeley.  The most important thing for me is looking at the connections between modern science, medicine, and healing traditions such as yoga and sufism.  Embodiment and a return to earth as prayer, a restoration of our consciousness back to reality out of our heads will balance us.  To restore the time we spend gardening, meditating, and breathing first of all.  My friend Lila Mayi says, “Deep abdominal breath is one of the most healing and grounding and easy practices there is, so I hope if you have some time you’ll do this.”  She and I connect at the Sivananda Ashram Yoga farm about divine destruction and renewal.  To be creative and different is to search for truth behind illusions, cutting through to find authentic reality.  A blog post she shared about Devi is amazing.  I reflected back that the metaphor of the “Electric Blanket” in my poem Headed South is the Devi force.  Oppenheimer also reflects on this here.

He truncates the scripture, omitting the feminine. One day in the not too distance future, we may see creators of cooperative theology quoting another more uplifting passage of the Bhagavad Gita than the one as quoted by Oppenheimer above, “I am death, the all-destroying, and the source of what will happen; of feminine things, fame, wealth, speech, memory, wisdom, courage, patience.” (Gavin Flood and Charles Martin, The Bhagavad Gita, (New York, New York: W.W. Norton and Company, 2012), p. 85.)

Let’s look beyond Armageddon, let’s look beyond death and see what it truly is, a renewal and a rebirth.  “To everything there is a time…” the Bible and Byrds song goes…

Artists work to restore and give rebirth.  A painter talks about this last night, and I meet one at home.  What a universe.


About kayaerbil

I am a Berkeley educated chemistry Ph.D. who is moving into the area of working on developing appropriate technology for communities that are subjected to socio-economic oppression. The goal is to use simple and effective designs to empower people to live better lives. Currently, I am working with Native Americans on Pine Ridge, the Lakota reservation in South Dakota. I am working with a Native owned and run solar energy company. We are currently working on building a compressed earth block (CEB) house that showcases many of the technologies that the company has developed. The CEB house is made of locally derived resources, earth from the reservation. The blocks are naturally thermally insulating, keeping the house cool in the summer and warm in the winter. Eventually, a solar air heater and photovoltaic panels will be installed into the house to power the home and keep it warm, while preserving the house off the grid. A side project while in Pine Ridge is a solar computer. I hope to learn about blockchain encryption software for building microgrids. In addition, it is an immediate interest of mine to involve local youth in technology education.
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