I had to get this out and share for healing. Sorry!
Bulldozing Graves and Suicide in Sacred Stone: Key in My Neck
I made the mistake of giving cameras out to Elder Lakota Women,
I fucked up and opened up a catharsis in Sacred Stone Camp,
Sorry, sorry, sorry, I’m sorry for being white, death to white man,
Death to me, kill me left with my key, commit suicide with a key,
Shatter my neck with a key, metal blade in my demon’s neck,
Go away demon! Go away white man! I hate WASPs! I hate myself!
Kill me left hand! Hail Satan! Left hand go away! Left hand path,
I’m tired of it, if your hand causes you to sin cut it off, I’m muslim,
My Turkish side destroyed those towers, sorry America,
Sorry sisters, sorry brothers, sorry for 9/11, kill me please!
Suicide in Standing Rock Camp! Sage please! Catharsis!
What did we do when we whites opened up those grave!
Regret what I did to open this pain. Recovering at home from psychic trauma at Standing Rock due the psychosis due to bipolar disorder I. I was off meds for two weeks, forgot the when going to Wind River Range. Needed my mania to do what I did. Tired. Wrote this poem about healing rape of earth and healing of water. Thank you friends at sacred stone. Tired, exhausted. Writing a crowdfunding page. Wrote this poem today:
Light in a Black Hole
Tears unleashed with soul fury over the rape of Gaia, my Mother,
Soul cry to my friends and loved ones,
Don’t stare into the sun,
Sit in a black hole and channel the abyss,
Give the light to the darkness,
A singularity revolving around a water swirl,
Sacred Stone factory,
Come back, and make cannon balls again.