Being What One Might Call an “Atheist” in a Christian Seminary


Is God Dead?

Based upon my perceptions, there is no being named “God” … nor does a term like “Ground of Being” hold much water for me.

There I said it.  Plain and simple, I have, to date, not had an experience that would lead me to the conclusion that a transcendent being named “God” exists beyond or above all existence.  The universe with all its stars, planets, gases, and nova is vast enough as it is, why does there need to be a “first mover”?  Can’t the universe just be?  How can it be that the creator of the universe created a single book like the Bible or the Qur’an to encode the secrets to life without accounting for the myriad of intratestamental and intertestamental contradictions?  Theology is fascinating, but it’s because we humans are fascinating. We create religions, but why?  Is it our search for meaning?  Is it to feel better about questions for which we have no answers?  Is it because it has an evolutionary value?  These are some of the questions I am pondering after a first year of seminary, I just do not know if there are definitive answers as religion would claim.

What space is there in a seminary for someone who asks such questions and is not satisfied with the answers that are given in return?  How can I reconcile the Christian faith and the scientific materialism I was raised with?  Why are there no resources course wise to help seminarians answer such questions?

I yearn for a wisdom that can help me out of this quagmire.

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About kayaerbil

I am a Berkeley educated chemistry Ph.D. who is moving into the area of working on developing appropriate technology for communities that are subjected to socio-economic oppression. The goal is to use simple and effective designs to empower people to live better lives. Currently, I am working with Native Americans on Pine Ridge, the Lakota reservation in South Dakota. I am working with a Native owned and run solar energy company. We are currently working on building a compressed earth block (CEB) house that showcases many of the technologies that the company has developed. The CEB house is made of locally derived resources, earth from the reservation. The blocks are naturally thermally insulating, keeping the house cool in the summer and warm in the winter. Eventually, a solar air heater and photovoltaic panels will be installed into the house to power the home and keep it warm, while preserving the house off the grid. A side project while in Pine Ridge is a solar computer. I hope to learn about blockchain encryption software for building microgrids. In addition, it is an immediate interest of mine to involve local youth in technology education.
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